Yesterday, I had tried to explain to a friend what being in love felt like, and I was at a loss of words. My body was warm thinking about it and my eyes were closed remembering the days where I had the luxury of loving and being loved. I'm gonna take another shot at explaining, so here goes nothing. Being in Love is one of the best feelings I have ever felt. It's the act of being perfectly in sync with another soul. Being in Love is having full trust in your partner, so the focus is always on being happy. There will be arguments, but there is no fear of loss because you know that your partner won't abandon you when things get hard. It's having full faith that another human being feels the same way you do about them, and when you are far from each other your thoughts are still aligned. It's acknowledging each others imperfections, and loving them for not being the same as everyone else. It's realizing that people make mistakes, but that doesn't mean that they are any less amazing. It's wanting to learn about your partners interests, because you want to be apart of the things they love and vice versa. It's being in a room full of people, and feeling like you are the only two there. It's wanting to share any and everything you have just because you can. It's endless laughter and smiling. It's happiness and joy even when nothing is said. It's being able to express any emotion and never feel judged. Being in love is leaving your pride at the door and laying your truth on the table as your loved one openly receives you. It's being held at night when things get a little overwhelming. It's an everlasting friendship. Being in love is showing an undying respect even when the love itself dies.
Not too long ago I decided to take control of my life. Instead of laying down in bed feeling like the world was just happening around me, I decided to be present in the lives of my friends and family. That one decision made all the difference. Opening up to people allowed me the opportunity to make valuable connections. This all started when I went through a break up with my on again/off again boyfriend of two and a half years, and it was something about this last break up that allowed me to realize that something needed to change. The feeling of loss is so powerful, and I'm actually surprised that I was able to turn so much emotion and negativity into something positive. I'm young, and I won't be young forever. I need to make these years count, so it starts now.